But we were hoping He was the One who would redeem Israel. And besides all this, it is the third day since these things took place.
After the hospital, it's possible to sit in the car outside your own front door for a long time with the engine off. You try to pray the way you've only recently learned to, and nothing comes. In the quiet, a harder thought can arrive: is God actually there, and did any of what I began to believe really hold?