Eight days later, His disciples were once again inside with the doors locked, and Thomas was with them. Jesus came and stood among them and said, “Peace be with you.” Then Jesus said to Thomas, “Put your finger here and look at My hands. Reach out your hand and put it into My side. Stop doubting and believe.”
There's a particular quiet that can come after you stop being sure. Sometimes a question gets too heavy to say out loud, and drifting away feels easier than admitting it, even while you still remember the songs and the words.